Only the real being who loved you from the start, who loves you now, who will always love you. Single person vacation. No having to share.
What about the intentions of Christ- what about His wants- His will? In Philippians, Paul brags about Timothy’s ability to live for the intentions of Christ. Why don’t we all do that in our simple pursuit to give all of ourselves to Him? My vacation is relaxing and filled with adventure. My struggles and uncertainties encompass my relaxation because if I didn’t have struggles to throw up to the Lord, I couldn’t testify for the Glory that is only fitting for my Father.
I’m not “waiting” for the man who I’ll marry, I’m walking out the most eternal romance right now. The man who walks unassumingly and with powerful gentleness. My husband will cause me to fall in love again, no need to mend my heart or put me back together, my second love will be fierce because it will cause my love with Jesus to burst into flames and light the path we are walking on.
I am so in love, so enamored with Jesus. He really loves me. And He wanted to show me this in the most existentially convincing way. And one day I’ll get to share that with another human who will compassionately push me to love God in an even more depth and zeal. But for now, I already have the love of my entire existence… my God. How’s that for giving my heart and soul a vacation.